“I thought that by <insert age here> life would look a certain way, I thought things would be easy and fun all day everyday, I thought I would have a <insert $ amount here> in my bank account and a super awesome life.”
I used to think this way. I used to put a lot of pressure on myself and felt things were supposed to be something they were not, and therefore I was a failure. I no longer feel that way. I have learned to live from a place of abundance, rather than a place of scarcity. It has not been easy. It is not easy.
Growing up I never really got money – I just knew I wanted/needed lots of it. My mom tells a story of a time when I was very young – I wanted something and was not able to get it. “I don’t have enough money” she said to me. My response… “go to the wall and get some more.” I had no idea how that whole thing worked and truth is I still don’t have it all figured out. My parents tried their best to teach me about money – allowances, lectures, bank accounts etc. I just didn't get it. They seemed to have a lot of it and I wanted a lot of things… so I did whatever I could to make that happen.
In the back of my mind I always imagined that I would graduate college, start an awesome career and have it all just like they did. I didn't get how hard they worked for it, how good they were with budgeting, how it was a lot of work and a lot less play. I just didn't get it. In the moment it didn't matter how much I spent, how much debt I accrued etc. because that day would come and all would be right with the world. Yea…it didn't work out that way.
There are some things I wish someone would have told me…maybe they did and I was just not listening, I don’t know. But hopefully someone else can hear it and not have to go through the same plight I did.
Unless you choose to do great things with it, it makes no difference how much you are rewarded, or how much power you have. – Oprah Winfrey