This year has been a crazy roller coaster ride of absolute sheer awesomeness and terrible no-good awfulness. There have been days of pure hopelessness and days full of possibility. Today is one of the latter.
I have had a mission, a vision, a dream for some time now and it’s finally beginning to come to fruition. Had an amazing meeting tonight – a yes meeting. I love yes meetings! So then why do I feel so freaked out?
…and the fear creeps back in. I can’t be the only one to feel this way. To have everything I’ve been working so hard for actually fall into my lap and feel like “Oh shit, now what?”
I am super prepared; I know that I’ve got this. I know that I can do it, that I am enough, that it will be all good – I know. But there is this little voice that says, “what if?” and “don’t get your hopes up.”
And back on the fucking rolling coaster I go.
But the beauty of the roller coaster is that I am the not only the passenger, but also the operator – I push the buttons. At any point, I can press the emergency break and get off the damn thing. So this is me pushing the breaks and getting off.
Because the reality is that possibility is up to me – the only place where things are impossible lies in my own head. Out there, in the world, lies infinite possibility.
Time to show up, do the work and stay out of the results. The worst thing that could happen is that nothing happens… no biggie, back to work :)
Quotes of the day:
Good things happen when you do good things.
The difference between can and cannot are only three letters. Three letters that determine your life's direction.
you can, you should, and if you’re brave enough to start, you will. - Stephen King
Failure is another stepping stone to greatness – Oprah Winfrey
Being an optimist doesn't mean only seeing the glass half-full, it means seeing the possibility of filling it up again. - me